Mindful for the Memories

I think I’ve always been the nostalgic kind of person who was totally excited to be the historian of the honor society club in high school, the unofficial family photographer of close friends, the keepsake-scrapbook-trip journaler type. I love making memories. And now it’s even easier to “think back” and “remember when” with technology and social media reminding us everyday of what we were up to–or at least what we posted about–a year or two or eight years ago. (Yes, social media, as we know it, has been around for more than a decade now! Hard to believe and remember our lives without it sometimes, huh?)

And as I’m completing more than half a year as a mother--my baby girl will be 7 months old tomorrow already–I’m struck with an even greater nostalgia. She does something new and adorable and endearing and funny and memorable everyday. EVERYDAY. How am I to record all of these wonderful memories?! It’s almost overwhelming, of course in a good way, to keep track of each beautiful moment, kind of like grabbing at sand made of diamonds as the tide of time takes each brilliant moment and archives it in the past. 

 

I had a somewhat similar feeling when my husband and I got married almost 4 years ago(our anniversary is next week!) and we planned everything in under 6 weeks. There was a lot of adrenaline and many, many details to prepare but I wanted to remember every beautiful moment back then too. And at that point in my life, time moved slower. Now as a new momma, time flies by at the most incredible speed. I sometimes think “slow down” but then I also LOVE seeing how much my baby girl has grown and learned in such a quick period of time. And I’m excited and thrilled to get to watch her continue to grow and learn more and more. I know this excitement will continue for the rest of my life. 

So what’s a momma (or daddy or auntie or uncle) to do? 

 
 

SAVOR EVERY PRECIOUS MOMENT WITH MINDFULNESS.

Stop, pause, take a few deep belly breaths, and savor it all with mindfulness. Mindfulness is the ultimate elixir for nostalgia. It slows us down at least enough to really enjoy the present moment we’re living and with that reduction in the normally chaotic speed of the world, we get to sit back and savor the beautiful gifts we’ve been given in this life. Whether it be the privilege of watching children of our own or nieces and nephews grow, or our wonderful pets, or going on that incredible trip we’ve been longing to take, climbing that huge mountain finally, or meeting that awesome goal, an unbelievable dream reached, we will surely enjoy reliving all the memories if we stop and really notice how we’re feeling, what colors we’re seeing, what scents we’re breathing in, what sounds we’re hearing. Really taking in the moment helps us savor it so much more right then and there and later on when we want to look back and remember the incredible things we’ve done or witnessed.

I remember stopping to notice an adorable momma duck and her ducklings swimming by right before our wedding ceremony began. It may have seemed like a distraction to some but it was actually one of my ways of taking it all in and really noticing that beautiful moment. And I’m so glad I did.

So as I contemplate where the time has gonethese last 7 months since our daughter was born, I really want to remember to be mindful, mindful of my nostalgia even as I look back at my favorite moments and memories with my daughter so far, and mindful of the moments I’m living right now. There’s really no way to turn back the clock to relish a little longer in the little and big things that I love about becoming a mom but I can take the time to relish right now in this incredible moment of my baby turning 7 months old and stay present in as many moments as possible from here on out. It’s not always easy when you have poop on you or you’re sleep deprived, but I know for a fact that I won’t regret choosing mindfulness when it comes to living the rest of my life.

 

Would you like to live your life more mindfully? 

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The Importance of Mindfulness - Especially on a Rainy Day

 

 

How we turned a previously described “dreary” day into a more “cheery”--or at least more mindful day...

This morning when I got up, my energy was pretty low and when I looked at the window, there was the infamous Seattle area drizzle happening. It didn't feel very inspiring. But staying inside isn't always the answer. My baby girl and I had an errand to run which also corresponded nearly perfectly with her first nap so I showered and we got ready to go out. 

When on maternity leave, getting out of the house everyday is so important. Not just for me, the mommy, but for my baby too. We both tend to do better when we have plans away from home. So I ran the errand and Luna took a power nap of 30 minutes. 

On our way back home, I took a detour to explore a little and discovered a new walking trail. It was only drizzling out so I decided to park and take my baby on a quick walk. She was all bundled up, snug in her stroller, sheltered from the rain, and had just awoken from her nap happy and ready to explore with Mommy. 

 

We didn't discover anything terribly amazing on the new trail, mostly construction but we did enjoy the fresh air, nature sounds like bird singing, and early signs of spring on the trees. And I think we both felt refreshed. 

 

It's days and moments like these where I'm thankful for practicing mindfulness--stopping and observing the simple things in life. And showing them to my daughter, which makes everything even more meaningful now.

Do you practice mindfulness? What does it do for you?

 

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Why I Collage: A Reflection

 

Almost 4 years ago I started collaging again, after not having done so since I was a kid. I started with a vision board collage and didn't even have a glue stick. I just sat on the couch while my husband and I were watching TV and plowed through countless magazines I was wanting to recycle and taped together my very first vision board. But what I really discovered was a missing piece in my happiness. I thrive when I'm being creative. And sometimes when we “adult” too much, we forget what brings us to our happy place. Collaging has brought me closer to my creativity and that is so important for me in living a more joy-filled life.

Since rediscovering this vital part of cultivating more creativity in my life, I started sharing my love for collaging with others at get-togethers with friends and later in-services at work and then classes in the community. It filled me up and I loved watching others rediscover a little part of themselves that they may have left in their childhood. 

 

I also collect different scraps from colorful ads or words and phrases that inspire me so that I can create mini-collages fairly quickly. I keep them in a little notebook I started almost 3 years ago and love to go back through the book to see the different themed collages I've created. It's been a really helpful and fun way to destress and reconnect with my creative side. And now I can't wait to share my love for collaging with my daughter!

Do you remember a favorite activity you enjoyed as a child that you could bring back to feel more joyful when you've been "adulting" too much?

 

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Baby Steps Back to Self-Care

 

Self-care and wellness are two of my favorite things to read about, practice, and share with others. So it's pretty ironic that when I became a mom, I forgot how to care for myself. I guess I figured that my extended maternity leave was enough since it felt like a gigantic step to taking care of my needs and desire to be home longer with my little one, after waiting 37 years to become a mom. 

But now, 4 and a half months in and baby’s first bad cold later, I'm realizing I really need to make a new momma self-care plan and stick to it! This isn't just essential to my health but to my family’s wellbeing too, because everything runs more smoothly when the momma bear is happy and peaceful. I know it's not realistic to be happy all the time and I want to honor all my feelings, but I do want to stay more grounded and feel more peaceful at least. 

Time flies in general but you really truly don't see it with your bare eyes as much as when you watch a baby grow and change! It's incredible all that she's learned and how much she's grown over the past four and a half months! If I think about it too long, I already feel nostalgic and want time to slow down, but I know the only way to “slow time down” is by being more mindful and savoring every moment that we have with this bright-eyed, amazing little human who has chosen us as her parents.

So how to get started? Well, regular, daily bite-sized pieces of self-care (or “baby steps” quite fittingly) are always my go-to way to begin a new habit and help it stick. And what I've found helpful as well is using social media and/or my blog to post my progress and help hold me accountable. So starting today--because why wait until tomorrow when you can do something about it today?!--I will carve out at least a few minutes of each day for myself. That means practicing more self-advocacy, delegating, communicating my needs, and taking better care of myself in return. 

For me, expressing my creativity and being in nature are my favorite things to do for myself. These have been my self-care favorites since before becoming a momma, so in a way, by practicing them a little bit everyday now, I will also be helping reestablish my unique identity apart from my greatest role ever of being my baby's momma. I know my daughter someday will want to learn what her momma likes to do, in addition to playing with and taking care of her children. I also know how important it is to model self-care for my daughter so she can begin good, healthy habits early in her life. So by taking better care of myself, I really am taking better care of my daughter. So here's to guilt free self-care!

What things do you do for yourself? Are you making time for those things right now? How can you sprinkle in a few minutes of one of these things you like to do for yourself everyday?

If you’d like support, I’m here for you. You can learn more about my life coaching services at: http://owningyourgoodness.wordpress.com.

The Courageous Act of Rest

 

Sometimes I put pressure on myself to get stuff done, to do magic tricks and juggle caring for my four-month-old while taking care of our home and starting my own business. But then there are days when my baby girl has a cold and so do I and both our energy is waning and all we can muster is snuggling on the couch, nursing and napping. And that is productive. It's just not how we’re taught to view productivity. Rest is so underrated but so so necessary for everything to run smoothly. I've come to believe that colds have a way of slowing us down so we’re forced to rest. But what if we incorporated rest in our everyday lives? Would we feel better? Have less colds? I think we just might.

But how can we get everything done that we need to get done while also making time for rest? I know for me, since becoming a mom, I've found time for rest when breastfeeding. But I find myself still trying to multitask and for example write a blog post or read articles while nursing. What if I took more time to take deep belly breaths instead? Or if I distanced myself from technology more and colored instead? Creativity is rest for me. Collaging relaxes me. It's challenging to do though while breastfeeding but visualizing is entirely possible. And using our minds to improve our wellness is also a creative and valuable task.

I read a quote earlier today about how we can make any task a meditation by focusing on that one thing mindfully. Or by NOT multitasking. Yes, unitasking may be the key to finding windows of rest in our day. I know, I know, it goes against all we've been taught, but what if we gave it a try for at least a few minutes during each of our days? How would our lives change? How would our health change? How would we feel? I dare you to give it a try. 

What part of your day can you dedicate to unitasking?


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Collaging for Reflection

A couple of days ago I taught a new collage class. I decided to focus the collaging on reflection for the end of the year. It's something I enjoy doing each year around this time and I thought it would be neat to combine my love for collaging with reflecting on the past year. Before digging into the collaging, I offered some questions to get us in the mindset of reflection before starting our collages.

Since it was a small class, I got to take part in the fun too and created a collage as well. I encouraged everyone to keep in mind what inspired them over the past year and pick images and words from the magazines that grab their attention. When collaging, for me at least, it's important to not overthink it, to just rip and create. 

In the end, I looked at my own collage and wondered what lessons were hidden in the images and words I chose to paste together. So after the class ended, I decided to send the same reflection questions I offered at the beginning of the class to the attendees and invited them to look at their collage creations while thinking about the questions. I did the same with my collage.

 

I found the questions on a site called Minds In Bloom for teachers actually preparing to end the school year with their students, but I thought they really worked for an end of the year reflection too, such as:

What are some things that you did this past year that make you smile?

When did you feel the most joyful or alive this past year?

What was the most challenging part of the year for you?

What are the 3 most important things you learned from 2016?

Reflecting on the year through the eyes of my collage was a really neat exercise and one I'd like to continue doing at the end of each year. It helped me see what I learned in a creative, more abstract way, rather than the more traditional cerebral way of looking back. From my collage, I pulled the following lessons in my life from 2016:

*Giving life and that my motherhood is linked to Mother Earth

*To just keep riding ~ "Ride, Mama, Ride"

*Courage & bravery when scared or uncertain 

*Trusting my wings & that the parachute will catch me when I take leaps of faith 

*Dance when down -or- stand up and dance 

*Home is where the heart is

*"Love, Faith, Attitude, Present Moment, Objectives/Goals, Forgiveness - Keys to Happiness" (translated from Spanish)

*Growing wisdom/knowledge 

*Motherhood is a gift 

 

I'm excited to share my love for creativity with my daughter. Looking forward towards 2017 I know many more gifts, blessings, and lessons will be brought. 

What have you learned from this past year?

The End of the 4th Trimester

 

Today our baby girl turns 3 months old and this concludes an era some call the “4th trimester.” The end of her newborn stage too. Sniff sniff. Time is moving so fast and our Luna is growing and learning so much! What a difference 3 months can make! It's probably been by far the most meaningful 3 months of my life. I'm so thankful to get to experience motherhood finally and get to know my beautiful daughter and watch her grow and change. 

What I've learned about myself in this “4th trimester” or 1st 3 months of my baby girl’s life is that I'm so much stronger than I ever imagined I was. I’m proud of myself for giving birth naturally with no pain medicine. I've woken up at night every few hours for the past 3 months to feed my baby and I miraculously still have energy at the end of each day now. I haven't read all of the recommended books on child development but my baby is doing amazingly well and learning new things each day. I follow my instincts better than I ever have. I come up with different ways to distract my baby when she gets fussy and it usually works. Of course I also have off days and feel up and down at times with different emotions and fears of not doing a good enough job as a mom. But when I look back at these past amazing 3 months, I'm comforted and reassured that I'm doing just fine. 

Motherhood is so much about finding self-kindness so that we can reflect that image back to our babies. They absorb everything and I have to remind myself to mindfully go about my day soaking up all the incredible baby love (and baby drool!) around me! What an awesome journey we’re so blessed to be on!

Sacred Morning Time

  

 

Mornings are so sacred, just as my mom said they'd be, with sweet Baby Luna. She is starting to sleep more in the night and only wakes up a few times to breastfeed so I feel a pattern may finally be emerging. Then this morning I signed up for a coaching call at 9am, thinking she'd be breastfeeding or napping, which is what we usually do in the mornings. And she was! She really has been very calm in the mornings lately, waking up very hungry but after nursing for a bit, sometimes off and on for an hour or so, she takes a delicious nap. It can be another hour or so and then she may have some adorable awake time before napping again, usually in the swing up to this point while Mommy finally prepares and hopefully eats breakfast. 

But because of the call this morning, I have become really aware with the rich silence that can happen each morning. I turned the TV off for a change--it’s had kind of a mindless numbing effect on me this past few months at home. I know my smartphone is also a time and energy sucker but at least I can do some worthwhile things on it, like writing my thoughts and memories down, blogging, staying in touch with friends and family, and reading different articles about parenting and wellness, for example. TV can also be beneficial at times, especially with history programs or funny movies, but I think it affects me when I watch too much because it's not in line with my beliefs of not having Baby Luna watch TV for the first few years. Same goes for the phone actually, which may be why my anxiety is up a bit overall. 

I know that was the case when I finally got organic shampoo for myself last year after hearing about how certain products can affect our overall health from so many chemicals. Something seemingly so simple, but as a result of the switch to organic, I felt so much better about what I was using on my body. Same goes for the food I put in my body too. I have fallen out of alignment with my most precious values and beliefs and this causes angst over time. Sure, it's survival at first because we’re running on little sleep and everything is so new, but 8 weeks in, I'm starting to realize how not staying true to what I believe in--in terms of healthy living for my baby and myself--really can take a toll on my overall wellbeing. 

Since discovering the beautiful silence of the morning, I'm going to start by taking quiet time to reflect and meditate while Luna sleeps, like I'm doing right now. (Writing is a form of meditation for me sometimes.) Through that reflection time, l hope to feel more energized and make choices throughout the day, when it’s possible, around my time and food that fill me up, rather than leaving me depleted.

Have you ever fallen out of alignment with your values? How do you get back in line? 

Rethinking Productivity and Self-Care as a New Mom

 

For more than 7 years, I read and studied about how to better manage stress, how to increase wellness, and how to practice more self-care. When pieces on parenting and stress management or self-care would come up, I would skim through them, not giving them as much consideration because I wasn’t a mom yet. For as long as I can remember though, there wasn’t a doubt in my mind that I would be a mom someday and for the past 6 or more years, I have been preparing for this beautiful roller coaster journey I’m now on as a new mom.

As much as one can prepare for a big event though, you never know how you’ll truly feel once you’re living in the actual event. And as many new parents have shared, sleep deprivation plays a big piece too. I consider us very lucky though because our baby girl, who is now almost 7 weeks old, has been a pretty good sleeper and hasn’t been particularly colicky thankfully either. We’re learning her cues and trying to figure out the signs of when she’s tired versus gassy versus hungry versus with a wet or dirty diaper. She is very expressive which makes our job that much easier. Or we are just psychic. :) I like to think the latter but I also love how expressive she is. Hee hee!

Apart from the general sleep deprivation everyone talks about, a more sensitive, emotional topic comes to my mind and heart that isn’t discussed as much, I don’t think. The feeling moms feel of birthing a part of their physical body and having that being detached from you. The simple act of cutting of the umbilical cord didn’t seem that monumental at that time, but it really was. It symbolized the journey of becoming a parent and of letting go little by little of our very creations. I don’t want to think about all the letting go yet that is to come in the far future when our baby girl grows up and moves on to live her big beautiful life, because for now, it’s the little things, the baby steps. Like for instance, today I had a dentist appointment, so I asked my mom to come with me to the appointment and watch Luna while I got my teeth cleaned. It went great thankfully and I only heard crying from my sweet girl towards the end of the appointment so my heart didn’t break open like it can when I hear her cry too much.

As our doula put it so beautifully, becoming a parent is like wearing our hearts on the outside of us. I most definitely feel that! And as my love grows for our sweet daughter, I feel it more and more. My heart aches physically almost when I can’t comfort her. Thankfully I have been able to stay home with her to care for her and respond to her needs so that her cries don’t go unanswered very often, but as time advances—way too quickly I might add—I know I’ll need to go to more appointments of my own and eventually my husband and I will want to go on a date night and we’ll have to leave our baby girl with family or friends or a babysitter. It’s just a part of life. So for now, little by little, baby steps is all I’m taking. It’s all my heart can take. I know my heart will stretch and my faith will grow so that it won’t break every time someone else watches her, but it’s really painful and tough at first. She’s my greatest creation. My magnum opus, as my own mother puts it.

But getting back to the title of this post, with all this in mind, I have had to begin to rethink what productivity means now. I am a list girl. That doesn’t necessarily mean I get everything done that I write down on my lists, but making to-do lists and project lists and self-care lists help give me a sense of control. If you were to give me a sheet of paper right now, I know I could easily jot down a whole page-full of things I want to do with Luna, get done around the house, cook for dinner over the next few weeks, etc. etc. But that is coming from my previous way of thinking, my pre-mom days. Now the number one priority on my to-do list is to feed my daughter and care for her. Then I also need to feed myself and care for myself. But what does that mean now? It’s a new paradigm for me. Since my baby is like an extension of myself and I care for her everyday, it almost feels like I can get away without caring for myself because I’m caring for her needs. But I know that’s not really the case. I need to care for my own needs too. How to juggle caring for a newborn and caring for the new momma that was just created as well? It’s truly a juggling act. But small baby step ideas are beginning to pop up in my head.

How to Care for My New Momma Self While Caring for My New Baby…

•  Read positive affirmations or articles/Meditate/Pray while breastfeeding
• Take deep breaths during each of Baby’s naps and/or relish in the joy of napping myself
• Mindfully and joyfully complete tasks like washing dishes, doing laundry, changing diapers
• Recognize and acknowledge what I’ve accomplished each day, even if nothing on the bigger to-do list got done, because the number one priority is feeding and caring for Baby and for myself these days
• Take walks outside with the stroller or baby wrap
• Make play dates with friends with babies for social interaction, connection, support, and fun
• Invite people over to visit Baby when needing more adult time and/or support
• Shower—and even take baths when possible!
• Say yes when help is offered
• Choose healthier food options to nourish the body
• Snack on fruits and veggies and protein
• Drink more water
• Stretch with Baby or while Baby naps
• Dance with Baby :)
• Sing to Baby and learn new songs!
• Read to Baby
• Share responsibilities with partner when possible
• Treat yourself—remember one or more of your favorite things and do that!
• Create something—make art again! Baby-related art counts!

See, this kind of list isn’t as overwhelming as my regular lists, because I can embed many of these items into my daily routine. I have to admit though that looking at the entire list does seem a bit daunting, but the blessing of a self-care to-do list is that you can try one thing at a time, add one thing per day or week or whenever you feel you need to, and its purpose is to help you recover from overwhelm and fill yourself back up, so there’s no need to overachieve or check everything off by a certain date. This is a list that will never be completed because it’s constantly needing to be repeated, and that’s a good thing. 

So let’s salute to self-care and rethinking how we look at productivity. Just checking one thing off my self-care list should be considered productive now in my new role as a momma. It’s going to take some time to get used to this new view, as with everything new, but little by little, I’ll take the baby steps necessary to care for both my sweet baby girl and this new momma I’ve become.

 

The Story of Birthing Our Amazing Miracle

 

It’s hard to put in words what an utterly incredible experience giving birth to a little human is. But I want to try because I want to remember as many of the beautiful details as I can years from now and especially when our baby girl grows up and is expecting a little human of her own.

Just thinking about the day before her birth when my husband and I went grocery shopping, I was still carrying her inside and my belly was very large. It’s quite surreal to think that less than 24 hours later, we had our baby girl in our arms and were beginning to get to know her at last. I do feel like I already knew her though because her sweet personality shone through during my pregnancy. Her gentle tapping when I’d put a pillow under my belly to sleep, her favorite froggie position on the left side of my belly—which is still her favorite sleeping position but now on our chests, her darling little hiccups that I could feel quite prominently in the final weeks of her gestation.

And when she entered the light and graced us with her presence in this beautiful and complex world, her sweetness continued to shine. She had inquisitive eyes as the doctor passed her sturdy little 9 lb, 4 oz body to me—they say babies can’t see very well in their first few weeks of life outside the womb but I loved seeing her beautiful eyes looking up at me and finding my breast quite quickly. I think I was a bit in shock from all that went on leading up to her grand entrance, but I still remember the overall sense of calm and being home at last when she was in my arms finally.

Earlier on the day of her birth, I began to have pretty regular contractions in the middle of the night, but my husband and I had seen these kind of cramps before—they were very similar to the menstrual cramps I endured before and after it was discovered that I had Nutcracker Syndrome 4 years ago. (The Nutcracker Syndrome is the entrapment of the left renal vein by the aorta and superior mesenteric artery, which causes extreme pain and/or chronic achiness in the pelvic region due to residual varicosities where the renal vein had to drain due to the entrapment. My husband reminded me later that I had always said that the Nutcracker-induced cramps were excellent practice for when I would be in labor someday and they were!) So we timed the contractions and waited for them to last at least 1 minute long and be 3-5 minutes apart, as we'd been instructed in our childbirth ed class, by our midwife and by our doulas. But they consistently lasted only 28-30 seconds long and came every 2.5 minutes. It wasn’t until I started to feel the urge to push with every contraction that we realized I was probably farther along in labor than we had initially thought. And within an hour, by 5am, with one of the pushing sensations, my water broke. My husband called our midwife and she said we should head to the birth center and to breathe through the pushing urges on the way there—we didn’t want to have our baby on the freeway! Wow!

Upon arrival at the birth center some 30 minutes from our house, the midwife checked to see how far dilated I was and discovered that I was fully dilated! We had gone through the entire first part of labor at home in the middle of the night on our own. Another wow!

I was invited to get in the jacuzzi tub at the birth center and begin pushing. It was quite surreal that everything was moving so fast. I didn’t know if we’d be meeting our baby girl within the next hour or if it would take longer, but I tried to breathe through all the sensations and feelings running through me and focus on pushing. To my surprise, I didn’t feel that much pain at that point, it was more like lifting weights or pushing something really heavy around. It was good ol’ physical work—no wonder this process is called labor, huh? :)  The pain had been more prominent early on when I thought I was only having early labor and at some point told myself this has to be the real thing because it was quite intense. All that we learned in our Birthing From Within childbirth education classes really did help—I remembered to breathe, I remembered to take breaks and close my eyes and even try to sleep between each contraction, I remembered to push the energy down, and I miraculously stayed calm.

It was such a natural process—one I knew deep down that my body was born to do, so I trusted and I felt secure with such an amazing group of kind souls around me to help me welcome our baby into this world. Our midwife, Andrea was there, her midwifery student, Felicia, our doula, Jennifer (who would have been happy to come to our house in the middle of the night to help us before heading to the birth center but we didn’t know we were so far along), my loving and supportive husband, Geovanny, and my amazing momma, Maureen. I know my brother-in-law was there somewhere too because he graciously picked up my mom early that morning and brought her to the birth center.

As the pushing progressed, everyone was so encouraging, telling me I was doing an awesome job and how impressed they were with how calm I was throughout it all.  That most definitely helped with what would next occur. Our baby girl took her first really big poo! Meconium is what it’s actually called. It’s the one sure thing that will turn a perfectly normal birth center birth into a hospital birth out of precaution for the baby, because if the meconium is inhaled into the baby’s lungs, she may need a suction right after birth, which is only at the hospital.

So our entourage packed up and got ready to head to the closest hospital, which thankfully was only about 5 minutes away. I was instructed to not push again—a very difficult feat after having pushed for the past several hours—and we all drove in a caravan to the hospital. I have to be honest here, I was not thrilled to have to transfer to the hospital. I really truly wanted to experience our baby’s birth in a more peaceful setting, but the next best thing was having all the peaceful people surrounding us there come with us to the hospital and advocate for us and support us. It almost felt like we took over the delivery room and were only using the facility in case we needed it. I liked that. The hospital staff probably felt a bit put off by so many capable birthing staff being with me but I felt secure. The doctor on call asked about my big scar, which was from the surgery 4 years ago to correct the Nutcracker Syndrome and which hadn’t been an issue during the pregnancy in the least bit. I almost got mad when another doctor came in and asked me the same question. This was not the time I wanted to be talking about an old surgery, which had nothing to do with the beautiful baby girl trying to make her grand debut this morning! But luckily a kind doctor was called in and had a big smile on her face and our birthing entourage helped explain my past health adventures. I remembered—quite miraculously I might add—that we had our birth preferences plan with us, in the event of a hospital transfer, and we were really impressed that the doctor and nurses respected our wishes and asked us questions before assuming anything.

One of the greatest surprise blessings of being transferred was that we were able to donate our cord blood, something I had wanted to do since I learned about it a few years ago but that wasn’t available at the birth center yet. That made me feel a little better about having a hospital birth. Also it was less than an hour from the time we arrived in the delivery room to when our baby girl was born so there was no time for the hospital to try to offer pain medicine or any interventions, and that made me feel really proud that we were able to stick to our original plan of a natural birth, despite having to go to the hospital in case our baby had inhaled any baby poo. Another concern that our midwife had warned us about was that we might not be able to do skin-to-skin right away if the baby needed a suction. That idea really broke my heart because I had read so many wonderful benefits of uninterrupted skin-to-skin time immediately after birth for the baby. Thankfully the kind doctor who helped us deliver the baby said that she would let me hold the baby and have skin-to-skin time right after the birth and they would check the baby out to see if a suction was needed. And luckily none was needed.

They still wanted to monitor our sweet baby girl and because she was born a very healthy 9 pounds, 4 ounces, they wanted to check her blood sugar as well. Our midwife told us that we didn’t have to stay overnight but that the hospital would recommend it. We decided to stay though just to be on the safe side and after such an adventurous 9 or so hours, it felt kind of nice to stay in one place for a bit. We got free food that was actually really good. The hospital took our baby girl’s footprints and gave us a keepsake which was really nice. We got to ask lots of questions about breastfeeding and later that first evening, we asked for help with our baby girl’s first bath, since she was covered in green meconium from labor. Of course there were some obvious differences in what the hospital believed and what we and our midwife believed, but I took all that information with a grain of salt and later asked our midwife for clarification.

Overall, for having things turn out differently than we had expected, which I’ve heard is the case in so many birth stories, things turned out really well. And we even got to visit with one of my co-workers who was scheduled to have her twins on that same day in the very same hospital. :) And a baby photographer came by before we left the hospital to take pictures of our sweet baby girl too. It was a good experience, and I’m really grateful we got to experience the birth center atmosphere too. I think its calming environment and energy really helped me through the unexpected events.

And then so much energy and focus and preparation is placed on the actual birth, but no one can really prepare you for the sheer and absolute and unconditional love you’ll feel for this little human that has entered your life all of the sudden. As our doula put it so beautifully, it’s like living with our hearts on the outside of our bodies now. So true. Our beautiful baby girl did wonderfully during the pregnancy and birth. And so we began the amazing journey into parenthood.